Please help me. I'm desperate.

It's been a really messed up week. My oldest brother moved back in with us, along with his girlfriend, because they got kicked out of their place because they have had to have ambulances come by 24/7 because they've been overdosing on heroin. My brother has had a heroin addiction for years. I have a feeling it will never end with him.

So, everyone in the house is paranoid and stressed out. It's just a very uncomfrtable enviorment right now. I have had to hide my stuff because it may get stolen. Honestly, I don't know if I want to keep hiding my things - too much stress. But, my parents say I should.

Tonight, totally unrelated to all of that up there, my other brother and my father almost got into a fist fight over stupid ♥♥♥♥. They were screaming at the top of their lungs. Usually, that stuff doesn't happen between them. It was just very unsettling, because I was trying to relax. So, I had to keep watch to make sure they didn't try starting fights with eachother again. I was prepared to call the police.

Really, I've had to deal with this kind of ♥♥♥♥ most of my life, and it gets really hard to deal with when I can't talk to people about it. I need to calm down. I'm depressed, angry, and afraid. I'm even afraid when I hear someone walking on the floor above me, because I think they might come down here and start causing problems. That's how extreme I feel right now. I'm still upset; I haven't gone to sleep. I don't know what to do. I need advice on how to cope with stuations like these, as I have a preminition that these kind of things will be happening more and more often during the next few weeks, or maybe even longer.

I need help coping with these situations, and calming down after they happen. Any advice on how to do so? Anything you can think of, I'd appreciate it.

Is there any friends that you could stay with for a week or 2?

Maybe. But, I bet that if I try to do that, my parents won't allow it because they want to feel like they're doing a good job with the situation they're in, so they feel they can take care of me and won't let anyone else do so because of their stupid pride.

Don't think I haven't thought of it, though. I want to, it's a good idea. But, I don't think I'd be able to.

what about for 2 days? such that it seems like a sleepover or what ever. How old are you now?

17. I have school, so I don't think they'd go for it. I sure wish they would though.

Okay you are my age so it might be easier to relate but i can't because none of my family are drug addicts.

maybe you could go over at the weekend or something, for a few days. Is there anyway to get your brother to leave?

Which one? Remember, there's two of them.

Anywho, either of them, no. Definitely not.

I was referring to the one on drugs(endless they both are?). Just think about when you are 18 you can move out. Other than that just try and avoid your brother(s) and stay at friends houses as much as possible. Offer to stay at your grandmas to help her out if she is ill or something, find some accuse.

The one on drugs is staying at our place until he goes to rehab, and gets back on his feet. He will be here for a long time. Hopefully, he doesn't act up.

I could visit my grandfather more often, but he would most likely talk about my brother. I know he has asked him for money. Gosh, poor grandpa... I feel really bad he has to go through this too.

Maybe he needs a visit though. He only lives a block away, so I'll try seeing him more. It will probably make him happy.

Tyler, that's a good idea. Maybe it could be therapeutic for both of you.

I'll right the PM soon, just have to do a few things.