Awkward. Yes, awkward. That was what this was. Isabella truly did remain sitting there, her gaze unrelenting. My eyes were fixed on the shining bottle in her hand, a guilty lump forming in my throat. I did not desire to take such a precious thing, but Isabella would not be satisfied until I did. Refusing her now...would not be very helpful.
So I relented. I took from her hand one of the silvery vials, which lit up even more brightly when I touched it. Ths vial was smooth and warm in my hand, shining with a lustre no precious gem could imitate. So lovely it was, as bright and soft and starlight. I would have to ask Adrien how he had captured such a radiant thing.
My eyes went back to Isabella, pleading with her to stop me, but she did not. Even as I took out the stopper, there was no sound, save for the life going on outside of the room. This I paid no attention to, as I was now fixed on the small bottle, staring at it even as I brought it closer to my lips. For a moment, I wondered if it was truly wise to drink such a thing, as I had never tried anything of the sort, but I was not about to argue with Adrien. I did not think Isabella would let me if I tried.
Finally, giving in to the request, I closed my eyes and poured the light into my mouth, taking in the small amount with a slight tip of the vial.
It was like drinking liquid fire.
To describe its taste would be like trying to attribute a smell to sunlight. I felt, rather than tasted, the firey liquid pour down my throat, its warmth far more intense than it had been in the vial. It almost seemed to loose its liquid qualities, shooting down into my chest, a flame adding itself to my own. The hairs on my skin rose, suddenly saturated with energy that began to seep from the depths of my lungs and into my limbs. Each breath pumped it vigorously through my body, heating it with a flame that was steadily growing.The intense sensation caused me to gasp, and I doubled over, crushing my arms tightly against my sides. My flame was growing faster than I could control it, its heat seeping out of my skin even as I struggled to control it.
No...she is sitting only inches away...I cannot...
I jumped off of the bed, dashing out of the room as fast as my legs would carry me. My body was bent as I ran, the only thing noticable to me being the smell of wood. Of burnable things. I whimpered and forced my legs to move faster, and in moments that were far too slow, I burst out of the inn.
Too much too fast... But it was too late now. It had to be released. It had to be let out or I thought I might burst. It took every ounce of self control that I had not to explode into flames there. I could feel my wings straining to emerge, to be released as they surged with energy.
How many blocks I ran, I do not know. At some horrible point, I could not endure it any more, and falling into a narrow alleyway, my wings burst out according to their own will. From my hands, the concentrated energy flared out, seething flames that roared as I hit them against the nearest rock-- a red wall of brick.
It was not the most refined means of controlling my wild fire, but it was the only way I could calm it. My arms were fully extended, the full weight of my back and shoulders pressing into the rock. My knees buckled as I pressed them against the ground, forcing my hands more deeply into the brick. With my head bent forward between my arms, I focused soley on forcing the flames back in, which were now cracking the brick before me. I felt it crumble in my burning hands, turning to powder in my fists.
This was a method I had learned from a young age: a crude, yet effective means of channeling uncontrollable power into something that could not be harmed. By directing all of the seething energy into one point, one object, it called forth the greatest of my concentration, giving me power over the flame even as it was released. This I would do until enough energy was gone that I regained power over it, power enough to force it back into my body.
It had been a long time since I had needed to do such a thing. Generally, I only lost control when I was particularly angry or desperate, the results of which remained on the charred earth of Bren. When I was younger, less focused, such bursts of energy would give off large flares of flame until I was too exhausted to create any more, which turned the world around me into ash. Almost everything I had touched back then turned to ash, life being reduced to nothing more than dust in the wind...
I took a deep breath, finally managing to pull the flame back into my chest, where I always felt it burning. My wings came back in with a little more strain, more resistant to the inward pull. Still shaking, my hands fell back into my lap, but they were by no means weak. I felt much more energectic than I normally did-- I simply was in control now. My head remained bent, my eyes closed as I continued to take deep, measured breaths.
At least no one was hurt...
OoC: Liquid Starlight ought to have a warning label
