dying inside

how many pepole here know that they are unstable and dying on the inside. like no reasons left to live?

i had the same feeling a few months back, might be a temporary depresion, what you need is are goals, set a achieveable goal in you'r life and work towards that, and rely on your friends, they're important, the thing is, there's always a reason to live, always, even if you dont want to anymore, (<--- that may sound stupid)
cause there are always people who wouldnt like it if you were to die, (and thats an understatement)
thats the best advice i can give you, set goals, achieveable goals (not like goals, as in "i wanna be a millionair") like what do you want to be when you grow up?, those sorta things, i always wanted to be a rockstar (<-- dare to laugh....) and ui realised that that aint gonna happed, so now im doing an education for Gamedesigner, wich should be do-able, those sorta goals, they keep you moving
yeah thats all i can give you, take care!

i felt that way once. try to set goals and think of what you have and what you mean to people.

No I've never felt that way. Because I know that there is always a reason for you to live.

Maybe just a little too deep to be asking people that kind of stuff. Do a private message to someone if you have one inmind. You really can't just ask people a question like that, not meaning to be rude or anything.

*Kicks GalBatorix* Nonsense no better a place to confess thoughts of sucide to the Zu Folks.

Well lets see here Yea several times and several times I went through with the act =P Well I'm standing so you can see the outcome each time.

Yea life is gay pointless, and stupid, until you get older ^^ Then you get a job, and you pay pointless gay bills, and then the goverment tries to steal every gay damn and pointless dime you own.

And you know what the point of it all is...

What ever the hell you want it to be. Life is what you make it simple as that. Nothing is handed to you, you work and you earn it. *nods*

About two years ago I was cronically depressed, and had many suicidal thoughts. I couldn't find joy in anything at all. I've recovered since then, but I still know what it's like - nothing matters at all, you feel like nobody appreciates you, it's impossible to laugh at anything no matter how funny it is, you just want to go crawl into a hole and die, etc.. Not very fun at all. I have recovered from it, most likely from going to a psychiatrist, at least partially, but I still get into such phases at times...although they aren't as serious as the "original" one.

I feel like dying every few months or so, with no good explination. I have manic depression, so I tend to have times where the world couldn't be better to me, and times where I wish I didn't exist. It's rather scary, looking at all the writings I conjure up when I am extremely down. I invision my own death, how it will be executed, how people will find my lifeless body, and how people close to me will react. To be honest, I probably would have taken my own life, if I didn't always think that way when I'm that depressed.
I remember a few times I was thisclose... and my friends came to my aid..
But there's nothing really I can do about it. I have my mood swings *EVERY* month. I've been on an extreme high lately, but I can feel that depression is kicking in. When I'm that way, I tend to be antisocial... I also tend to focus on all the negative things about myself and focus on that. I tear myself apart.
I don't want to go on medication, because I've seen first hand what it can do to people who consider theirselfs "artists"... but I also think that my mother's side of the family has extreme psychological issues (great grandmother was locked up in a mental institution in the 50's, my aunt is on medication and contstantly flips out on people, and my mother has commited herself to the hospital twice in my lifetime and happens to always struggle with depression...)
So.. I can say yes. I have felt that way before.

EDIT: Oh, and if anyone here tries to IM me sometime, and I don't respond, I more than likely am down on myself, and being my good ol anti-social self... -_-

Originally posted by Kishin
*Kicks GalBatorix*

OOOOWWWW!!! ::Holds giant bruise on him:: Da**, that hurts! Okay, sorry, I have never really felt that way, though, except Linkin Park's songs are sorda like that.

A few months back, like some members on this board, I had a temporary depression. It's one event led to another and only two or three of my friends knew that I was feeling really bad inside.

I had suicidal thoughts back then, although I never carried out those thoughts. I guess I wasn't THAT depressed as I thought I was. Still, the rage within me was so strong, so out of control... Anyway.

After two months of feeling annoyed with everything, people, education, society, and myself, I was getting rather tired and frustrated.

That was when I started to compose music/midis, to distract my strange thoughts away from messing up my mind. After two months of writing novels, composing music, go out with friends, playing videogames, and just basically having fun with my life, I've recovered from my depression.

Now that I regret ever hurting myself intentionally, but that was all in the past. Now I'm feeling free and alive!

Whenever you feel down and just basically frustrated at everything around you or even yourself, always remember this:

No matter how depressed you are, no matter how sad you are, no matter how trapped you are, smile. Laughing, smiling, and talking with friends or family who understand you will definitely make you feel better.

Even if you think that talking won't help, most likely, you haven't really talked to anyone, if at all. Don't force yourself to stay inside all the time. Go out! Get some sun beams on ya! And feel the nice, fresh air flowing around you.

i felt like this 4 about 3 years and the only reason i stick around is because of my little sister if she wasnt here i would be gone by now... i just find it hard to do things and just want to stay in bed and smutter myself... but it didnt work the first time so why try again

really...i have a constant feeling like that...i do a good job of hiding it away from people though....i tend to always have a sense of self-worthlessness....i have contemplated suicide pleanty of times over but i don't know what had stopped me from doing it....i sorta just wasn't able to.

Suicidal isn't really the word... more the opposite. Not fear of dying, but of not existing. Being gone forever, and once you and your' family and friends are gone, who will remember you?Will the world be any better after having you on it for a few years?
I used to get depressed over that. But it doesn't bother me any more, which in a way is worse. I don't want to be empty. I feel like I must be getting older, and in a few years I won't care at all. I'll have a screwdriver job, maybe a family, an average house. Just another grain of sand.

I feel like you do off and on. I lost my mother about a month ago, and it feels like I'm hemorging or something. Like I have a wound inside that will just keep bleeding and never fully close. The slightest thought of her makes me weep. I keep thinking I'm going to see her but I remind myself that she's gone forever. I feel like you Aziran, will I actually make a difference in the world? Will I matter? I thought about this in the case of my mother, and I found that she has made a difference in the world, at my mother's funeral, there were all kinds of people united, in a church. Muslims, baptist, atheist, homosexuals, blacks, whites, arabs, all in a church together to see my mother. It felt as thought the world felt it when she dies. And now, when I feel depressed, I remember my mother, and remember that she did make a difference in this world, for me and my siblings and the rest of the people whose lives she touched. And in her honor, I will make a difference in this world, I will, I just don't know how yet. The whole reason why I play the legend of zelda games is because I take on the role of a real hero. Some boy who has nothing to do with a girl but yet is going to risk his life to save her and why? Because it is the right thing to do. A true hero will do something to benefit others and accept nothing in return. My mother was this type of person, and I promise that I will be the same way. To all of you depress on this thread, please, don't be. Cause at least I care about you, and you and the other people in this forum may have not made a difference in the world, but at least you made a difference in my life and the lives of others. The way you guys post things and listen to people, believe it or not, you do more help than you think. You are all someone to me. And I hope that I can be someone to you.

*whew* You kind of scared me. I thought you had cancer or something.
But I know what you mean.
For about three or so years I've been in a fairly serious depression. I do a very good job at hiding it from my friends, and not counting the ZU community, I've only told a few other people. It really sucks. I wish I knew what to say, but I don't. Just stick in there, becuase suicide solves nothing.
*watches Good Charolette video*

Well i know how it feel like mate, but the thing is you are wanted in this life. Friends, family and ZU all care about your well being...i know its hard, and most of the time its unbearable. But the thing ive learnt is that suicide and stuff like that never solves anything. It may shorten your life span or make you very ill, but in the end you dont just hurt yourself....you hurt the others that hold you dear in their life. I hope that one day this depression will lift its ugly hands off of you, just hang in there and take it one step at a time.

dude, you can't kil yourself! It's wrong! There is always a reason to live, so don't do anything you and others will regret!

No matter where you are, there is always at least two persons who love you.

No matter who you are, you are always useful and your skills and talents make you such a wonderful person that someone out there wants to be with you and know you.

Because you are you, someone else loves you.

The courage you have to talk about your feelings is the base of gaining inward peace and healing. You have a potential to heal. Do not give up!