Heaven: Knowing what it is that would make my heaven. I just want to know what it is I'm looking for, to be honest. I really feel like if I don't find something I'll never be happy, but I don't know what it could be. Of course, it's entirely possible that it's just a silly feeling I can't shake.
Heaven: Having unlimited power to destroy and create. Having the ability to kill with my bare hands, and to create with my own mind. Having the ability to readily release my demonic personality on a whim, and being able to recreate what had been destroyed. My thirst for power would control me if I didn't have Aspergers Syndrome, and my will to create satisfies a loving second personality. Being able to appease them both would be the solution to all my mental wishes and problems.
Hell: Being absolutely powerless, causing my mind to rip apart due to contradictory personality. Just yesterday during class, when I was feeling powerless to help a friend, my demonic personality tried to take over and make me kill everyone in the room. My mind was ripping from trying to avoid the influence from that one personality. My mind's eye was flashing images of me killing, brutally, and I felt in my arms that what I saw had really happened, even though it hadn't.