Hev you ever felt as if everything means nothing?

Okay just recently I started having this weird feeling. im 14 for references, so it could just be a part of growing up, I dont know, anyway I have been feeling depressed lately. I have also been having feelings like I want to kill someone. There is this ******* at school that keeps saying Im depressing, and how he ****ed my mom, and how he posted my picture online and said how depressing I was. And then there are these other *******s in my english class, and 9th grader whos shorter then me, but a helluva lot more stocky, he says Im weak and pointless. And then theres this ******* whom has a bunch of friends that tlak behind my back. Quite frankly Im tired of it!! Ive given up hope on Jesus and God exhisting because everything Ive prayed for has never come true! I keep getting more annoyed everyday!!!

Ive had it! I feel as if nothing means anything anymore! My crush is pointless as it seems as if I have no chance with her, I keep getting picked on. And thenks to that ******* who says Im depressing, I feel as if i cant fight!!

I lift 20-30lbs curling, do 50-70 crunges, and my knuckles bulk out when I clench my fist. I dont know what to do anymore, everyday seems as if my life is getting worse, Im upset, I try not to cry at night, but I just cant hold it in!! Even as I type this, im trying to hold back the tears, what should I do!!?? What would you guys do, has this ever happened to anyone? Is it all a part of growing up!? Please tell me!!

Ive given up hope on Jesus and God exhisting because everything Ive prayed for has never come true! I keep getting more annoyed everyday!!!

I don't want to sound like a jerk but, you have the worst faith I have seen in a long time. If there is a God do you expect him to grant prayers that are only about you. "Please God don't let those kids pick on me anymore" you say. God thinks, "Wow, another teenager who just thinks about himself and that he is the only one having this problem. I will put him on my waiting list of every kid in the world."

Common, all that is happening is you getting picked on. It happened to me because I used to be fat. Well, I grew taller and not I am not fat anymore. That little problem of mine was solved in about four years. But, your not fat, and you don't have a problem that will take longer than a month to solve. Kids make fun of people because they don't want to get made fun of. It is human nature, trying to avoid a conflict at any means. Everyone talks behind people's backs. I guarantee that right now, someone, somewhere, is talking behind my back. Deal with it. Your giving this little thing too much thought and just making it worse. I strongly dissagree with this but, if it bothers you that much go fight the kids that are doing it. It seems to mean that you are just itching for a fight. Is that what you want? An excuse to fight? I think so because you talk about how much you exercise and what your knuckles look like. Maybe you are just as bad as these children that pick on you.

My advice, try to avoid these kids and they will stop. If there is a God, he/she shouldn't be bothered with these adolestant problems of yours. Hopefully when they stop you will regain your faith. Nothing is more pathetic to me than someone that abandons their faith just because of a little problem.

Life, depending on how you look at it, is either a beach, or a b****. Most people say it's the second.

Sadly enough, what you're going through is just growing up, and may even be something you'll have to deal with through you're whole life. It's just human nature that people insult each other constantly to keep themselves in "check".

I'm sorry you're going through this. Just try not to get bothered by it as much as you can. Working out all the time will only make you stronger physically, not mentally. Most people that have the same problems as you do artistic things, like writing, painting, acting, and all that. Maybe you should, too? Finding someone other than people you know from the internet might help, too.

Best wishes.

I'm 14 years old and I have felt this before. I feel as if I could just frickin kill all of those idiots! But, I have kept all of my anger bottled up, and its getting worse, I can barely hold in my urge to punch them in their face, so hard that they die. but, I can not do this because then I would go to jail for the rest of my life, or something. So you shouldn't hurt anyone. That would be terrible.

......"Ive given up hope on Jesus and God exhisting because everything Ive prayed for has never come true! " no. God and Jesus are there no matter how bad things get, they will always be there, and always have been there. I have thought that they didnt exsist before, but thats foolish, if you have believed in them before this stage of your life, then why stop believing in them now? Trust me, they are there, you have heard miracles before, so they are there, youve heard all thoes inexplainable stories.

You can get through this, I'm getting through all the people calling me emo/depressed, so you can too. And If it gets really tough you shoukd consult an adult. I know you never will, but I don't want to tell you to fight them. I'm kinda stuck in the same situation where I dont know wether to fight or tell an adult ehich i never will do.

But I'm sure things will get better, because I believe that god and Jesus are there and If I believe in them then they are as real to me as they are to you, and they are pretty real to me. Also, should you really let those stupid pwople' s words get to you, they dont mean anything, thier the kinda people who are going to have a child as soon as they get out of high school and ruin thier lives so hah. they lose no matter how many words they say.

Yeah, you sound like a normal kid growing up to me. You'll do fine.

Sadly, this is typical. Forget praying to God, because he isn't that great anyway. I was picked on all through high school, but I have good news. Once you get out of school, and into a career, you should get picked on less.

You see, workers aren't as mean as students, because they have a career to hang on to. Just find an outlet, excercise is helpful, and look to the future.

God and Jesus are there no matter how bad things get, they will always be there, and always have been there. I have thought that they didnt exsist before, but thats foolish, if you have believed in them before this stage of your life, then why stop believing in them now?

Jesus did exist, that is a fact. You can learn that in any history book.

You sound like a pansie. A ******. Dude, stand up for yourself. I bet they only do it because you let them. Stick em in the jaw one good time. Break their nose. I bet that person won't bother you anymore.

Yes, because violence solves everything... Heres a quote to think about next time you say something ignorant along those lines. "Violence only begets more violence."

Originally Posted by goronknight

Yes, because violence solves everything... Heres a quote to think about next time you say something ignorant along those lines. "Violence only begets more violence."

Come on. You can't sit there and say you can't stick up for yourself from time to time. Besides there are some circumstances in which a little "violence" is neccesary.

Originally Posted by jake101301

You sound like a pansie. A ******. Dude, stand up for yourself. I bet they only do it because you let them. Stick em in the jaw one good time. Break their nose. I bet that person won't bother you anymore.

These kids are stronger then me!! WTF am I supposed to do!! Man Im pissed, growing up huh! Well Ive had it, from now on Im gonna do what I want, when I want and however the **** I want!!

Drugs alcholhol all that ****, why didnt I give in before! its obviously the answer! I mean if you cant fight and dont wanna die, what other solution is there? Yeah praying dont work as Im just another kid praying, so what else should I do?

Originally Posted by jake101301

Come on. You can't sit there and say you can't stick up for yourself from time to time. Besides there are some circumstances in which a little "violence" is neccesary.

Use your words instead. Tell them to stop and how you feel. Yes, you will probably get made fun of more, but in the end you are the bigger person. Violence is never neccesary, it is an option that most people chose because it is easier than spending your time trying to resolve the situtation with words.

Originally Posted by goronknight

Use your words instead. Tell them to stop and how you feel. Yes, you will probably get made fun of more, but in the end you are the bigger person. Violence is never neccesary, it is an option that most people chose because it is easier than spending your time trying to resolve the situtation with words.

Most people use words at first, but they don't really help. Violence is what happens when words don't work.

KC, I'm sorry. You have to do what you think is best, and only you can decide what the best action is. I never fought back, and I remained a loser. Taking drugs and alchohol at fourteen will only cause more problems. There are more ways to hurt someone than with your fists.

Originally Posted by goronknight

Use your words instead. Tell them to stop and how you feel. Yes, you will probably get made fun of more, but in the end you are the bigger person. Violence is never neccesary, it is an option that most people chose because it is easier than spending your time trying to resolve the situtation with words.

In the end, how does that solve the problem?

Originally Posted by jake101301

In the end, how does that solve the problem?

You just ignore the stupid people. It's the best way to do it. Beating the crap out of someone is just the method of the idiot, use your brain to get out of the situation and it will save you a lot of problems, using your brain does not require words, it requires common sense and knowledge. Unless you're willing to get expelled from school, shunned from most of society, and sometimes sent to jail for going that crap. If so, then have at it.

Originally Posted by Leminnes

You just ignore the stupid people. It's the best way to do it. Beating the crap out of someone is just the method of the idiot, use your brain to get out of the situation and it will save you a lot of problems, using your brain does not require words, it requires common sense and knowledge. Unless you're willing to get expelled from school, shunned from most of society, and sometimes sent to jail for going that crap. If so, then have at it.

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Lets just assume this kid ignored the thrower. Tomorrow would've been a salad. Then a burrito. Then maybe some chocolate milk on his new shoes. Everyday it would have gotten worse and worse. But since this kid stood up for himself, I'm willing to guess that he has no more problems with bullies.

Originally Posted by jake101301

http://www.wimp.com/fatboy/

Lets just assume this kid ignored the thrower. Tomorrow would've been a salad. Then a burrito. Then maybe some chocolate milk on his new shoes. Everyday it would have gotten worse and worse. But since this kid stood up for himself, I'm willing to guess that he has no more problems with bullies.

Wow... what a wonderful code of living... "Man... they're throwing food at me... and they do it everyday. WTF! I'LL GO KICK THERE ASS!" C'mon, that is just retarded... though the movie is funny, the concept of it is not. The kid could very easily have ignored them... and if he feels the need to hurt them some how he should find another way a more passive way to get his anger out. I went through middle and elementry school picked on very much like that kid and I never beat up one person, I instead waited for them to get what they deserved (almost half of them disiplinary school for all of their high school lives) so I got back in a different way. Just think, use your head and you will get along in life. That kid could very well still be very unpopular, because I just ignored the idiots. I am one of the most "popular" (so to speak) kids at my school because I used common sense and intelligence. Woah, the brain does work.

Originally Posted by goronknight

Jesus did exist, that is a fact. You can learn that in any history book.

I'm afraid no one can actually prove that. History books don't know all. Homer is often written about in history books (the blind poet), but he was never proven to even have existed. He only exists in legends, like Jesus. And if Homer did exist, he most likely didn't create the stories attributed to him, he just wrote them down, but some history books still give him credit.

Ninja Blade (or Clark), you sound like you're going through that normal phase. I went through the "my life means nothing/life in general means nothing" phase at the age of ten, and it wasn't a pretty picture, but your going through it at the time you should be. Just roll with it.