Unforgiving Memories

The other night, when I was going through a box of my old stuff, I found a picture of a dear friend of mine. Here's the story between him and I: (Yes, he was 8 when I hung out with him, and I was 14. The only kids in my neighborhood are little kids, so I kinda have no choice in the matter...) He and I were great friends. Then, I went to camp for a week, and when I came back, he became friends with a girl I was no longer able to hang out with (don't ask, it's a messy story! It's just my mom's rules....). The more he and I hung out, the more he wanted to hang out with the other girl. One day, the girl was selling lemonade, and my friend wanted to buy some from her. I said it was okay, as long as we left when we were done. Instead, he just stood there, and helped her clean up. She got her bike, and he got his. They were gonna to ride around, when I suddenly left them. I later went to the basketball court to play, so I could calm my nerves. I found them still hanging out with a bunch of other people, leaving me alone. I burst into tears, sobbing. The boy said, "What's wrong?" I didn't answer, and I started to run home (the basketball court is right across from my house! ^^), and he followed me, asking me the same question. I ignored him, and kept running. I don't remember what I said, but before I opened the door, I shouted something at him. The point is, I found the picture and started crying again. I don't get what happened. He just kinda ended our friendship on the spot, and then we lost contact with each other. I had some other instances where he chose the other girl over me, so I went home. Has this happened to anyone? If so, what happened?

Well.. back in high school I became awesome friends with this girl: Lisa. Thing is, she had a reputation that wasn't very... uh, "respectable". However, I didn't care- I saw a lovely person who I could talk to and hang out with. People kept telling me that she wasn't what I thought she was. I ignored them because I thought that they all had some biast against her because of her reputation.

One time she and I went a party. We didn't know anyone there. While there, some guys approached us and asked us to go outside with them, just so we called all 'talk'. I turned them down but Lisa jumped at the opportunity. Without a second thought, she walked outside with the guys leaving me alone at the party. The next day she apologised and so I forgave her. However, this happened again when we went out clubbing the following week. She apologised again... and it happened again at the next party. Stupid me.. it took me that long to realise that she would always put boys before her best friend. She and I got along soooo well, but if there was ever a guy around- I didn't exist.

I still keep in contact with her because it's been 3 years since then. Thing is, we're not that close anymore... and I do miss our old friendship where we used to stay up all night talking and gossiping about anything and everything. But I can't bring myself to try to ressurect that friendship. I know someone who is still good friends with her and apparently she is still doing to same thing- dissing her mates at the sight of a pair of broad shoulders. I know that seems really bitter and catty but I don't have the energy to put up with it. I've lost that friendship we had, and I know that deep down, I'm not willing to try and fix that.

lol- well... that was a quite the therapeutic experience and weight taken off my shoulders

The thingis you need to explain, and remind them when they get tempted. I did this to my best freind and now he puts me first.

Rhea, that must have felt horrible when that happened. I'm glad you got it off your shoulders, though.

Originally Posted by Emaraldstone

The thing is you need to explain, and remind them when they get tempted.

I wish I had known to do that when this happened to me. That's good advice, but it's too late for me now. When we pass each other, we just say "Hey" really calmly, as if we were strangers. My dad will not let me hang with him, for fear that I will get hurt again. I'm actually relieved we're not friends anymore, since he's starting to get in with the "wrong crowd". Very sad for such an early age. I think he's 9 or 10 now, and sooner or later, I have a slight feeling he'll start doing drugs when he's old enough.

Hmmmm... I have an experience like that.

I moved into my neighborhood when I was four. And there were always two boys that would hang out together. They were both a grade ahead of me and I always looked up to them. But one day, they just suddenly hated each other- don't ask, it is a long story.

Then when I was five we had a christmas party at my house. One of the older boys was a little late, and he didn't really have any friends, so we were best friends for a long time.

Then when I was 6 and he was 7, we were sort of board at his house. SO when his mom said that it was time for me to go home, he said "YESSS!!!".... It really hurt me. I ran out of his house sobbing, he kept saying he was deeply sorry, but I didn't listen and I ran home. He called me later, and he said he was sorry, but I was still hurt. We didn't talk for about a year.

Then about a year after that incident, I decided to give him another chance, and we became best friends again, for a long time.

A couple years after that, he and I set up a snack shop. We went door to door selling popcorn and cookies and lemonade and stuff. It payed fairly good actually. So one week of it, we made a WHOPPING $60 (US). I had to go inside, and he said he would take care of the money till next week. We both sorta forgot about it, and whenever I brought it up, he would just say, "I'll pay you later". 6 months later, I was fed up with it, so he payed me back $3 in change. He said he would have the rest later. I was really mad by then, so I kept asking him for the money, until one day, he started avoiding me.

He would get off the bus early, and take a long way home, and he even got his parents to pretend he wasn't there. He then lied to his parents, my parents, and me. He fooled his parents into thinking I never wanted the money. So he had to have his parents pay me with their money. And they think I'M the bad kid....

sheesh, looking back on it, I don't know why I ever even gave that F*** job a second chance.

well that happened to me and my ex
we we'nt to my friends party and she said she was going to get some fresh air and these guys walked over to her, i wasn't watching untill i got up to go outside with her and then, all i saw was her walkin of with this other guy
i beat the crap outa him the next day at school, but she still stayed with him, well life sux sometimes,lol, so just live with it,hahahaha

When I was 5, I was (naturally) in kindergarten. I had two best friends: Hannah L. and Meagan D. I also had some other friends like Ashley, Kim, Kristen, Lanie, etc. Hannah was the quiet one, Meagan was the one who had a personality like mine, except a little less of a funloving person. We got along spectacularly for about 6 years.

Then it all went wrong.

One day at lunch, this girl named Angela came up to me and told me that her best friend had a crush on me. Thing is, her best friend was a girl. I knew her. Kiara. But that's besides the point.

Foolishly, I told her to tell me her name because I was interested and bisexual as well.

I will never forget the amused look Angela gave me when I said that.

She told everyone in the school about it. In fact, it got around so much, and to everyone, that it even got switched from me being bisexual to me being a lesbian (at the time I was going with a boy; yeah, because he's a girl and I'm such a lesbian). The counselors even called me in to talk about it, which, I'll say now, is absolutely NONE of their business. I didn't even say a WORD to them.

I lost every single friend I ever had. Since kindergarten, since the beginning of 6th grade. Everyone.

Everyone except Hannah.

I was in class with Hannah from 6th-7th grade. The rumor never affected her. I feel thankful to still have her, and we still talk.

I am in 9th grade now, and I am still hurt by losing all of my friends in 6th grade. When I was in 7th grade, the rumor died down, and no one cared anymore, except the ones who remembered.

But it didn't change the fact that my friends were never my friends again.

When I see Meagan walking by me in high school now, I realized she still looks the same as that little girl in kindergarten.

And it hurts.

It hurts...

Back when I was in 7th grade, I remember a time when I was made fun of for 6 months straight. It was all because I made a really bad mistake on a project and I looked like an idiot. Pretty much everyday for those six months, a bunch of kids would make fun of me, push me around, and kick my stuff everywhere. The worst part of it was, the principal and vice principal did pretty much nothing about it. That all happened about a year and half ago, but it still always gets me upset to think about it.

I'm sorry that happened to you, Alonely. I hate rumors, and most of the time they are not true. Rumors are evil. Pandachum, that sounded like an honest mistake, and those people who made fun of you were jerks.

When I was going into the 4th grade, my family moved here to Mesquite, TX. On the day we moved, an old friend of mine came over to my house to say goodbye. As my dad pulled out of the driveway, I started crying and didn't know why. Earlier on this year, I found out that I had been crying because I thought I'd never see him again. And I was right. I haven't seen him in 7 years. Everytime I start thinking that he's seeing someone else, I get really depressed. It really hurts me emotionally.

Aw, I'm sorry to hear that Alonely. A lot of rumors and such went on in my middle school as well. Only a few involved me, and not nearly as bad as yours, but still I can understand the amount of suckage that must've been.

Well, when I was in elementary school I was a but plump, and I dressed like a prep, and because of this not many people wanted to hang out with me. I had a set of friends, it wasn't like I was cut of from any social interaction, I just wasn't one to participate much in idle chit-chat.
Anyhoo, Around fifth grade I met these kids Zac and Tanner. It seemed we hit it off pretty good, we all had similar interests and we had a good time together. They were in 'popular' kids in school and because I befriended them I became 'popular'. At least it seemed like it at the time. Now that I look back on it I realize they were never really my friends, I was just the kid they hang out with and made fun of me behind my back. It's hard to explain the relationship but I'm sure most of you get the idea.
And yeah, around the time summer came around the kids started rumors about me and made fun of me and basically act like little asses. I of course, being in fifth grade, got sad and depressed. And yeah, it doesn't seem so bad now, but I remember back then they were just real jerks, and I lost a few friends from that. So it hurt then. So yeah, but then I went to a new middle school and met new friends and they kick ass, so I guess it was all worth it.

Wow!!! That must have been awful, Raunmy Boy. I know what you're talking about with the "popular" relationship, but luckily I didn't have to go through something like that. Athelin, it sounds like you were really hurt. I'm sorry. =(

I’ve mentioned his name about 40983284 times before on ZU, Matthew Hardin. Yeah…I loved him, more than anything else…

On May 27th, earlier this year, it was the last day of school. Matt was transferring schools. He said he might stay where he was at now, and he said he might change schools. They were building a new middle school, because our county had like 2 middle schools.

So, the new middle school that was built was closer to house. He said he was going to stay at LMS, but he said he might go to the new one. I found out at the beginning of this year that he didn’t stay at LMS, that's where I'm at.

I remember that last day of school. I was standing there outside waiting for my Mom to come, and he came over. “Well, I guess I’ll see you around.” Matt said. “Bye, Matt…” I said. “Good Bye, Christine.” He said. He walked away, and turned around once to wave at me. He also smiled at me, but I noticed something sparkly in his eyes. I felt like I was going to burst into tears. I smiled back and waved at him.

I wish I told him before he had to go, how much I loved him. *sighs*

Oh, Matt…

If I could,
I’d go back,
I’d tell him how I really felt,
Instead of continuing to play these little games,
I’d tell him how much I loved him and everything else,
I really wish I could…

*sighs*

Awwww thats sad Dulcie, I have a similar story...

It had taken awhile...

It was the 5th day of work and as she was a junior and still at school she worked after school and weekends, well, our first day together I was really annoyed how she kept calling me to check-out to do stupid things and when i was trying to finish my jobs for I could get home, as the weeks grew on I became fond of her and fell in love, we played and teased and stuff but I always hid my emotions, a couple of weeks ago $250 went missing from the till and everyone who worked Sunday got deducted $35 (It is illeagal for employers to deduct money for that so everyone got it back anyway), she quit because of this, I havn't seen her since, my last words were "I'll see you around", it makes me sad thinking about it...

Wow, Dulcie...........that's such a sad story. *sniffles* I'm glad you got to write out how you really felt. Writing and drawing are some ways of relieving emotional stress. Or so I've heard..........And Ninboy. I'm sorry you didn't get to tell her. Maybe you'll get to see her someday and tell her you love her. That would be nice.

I'm sorry for all of you, really, losing friends and such is awful. I'm also sorry for thinking that at least the few last ones are kind of weird things to cry so much about.

Like what, someone moved or you don't work in the same place anymore? That automatically means you'll never see that person again? Really, it's not like they don't excist anymore. You know their name, you can find out their phone number. Stop whining and call them. If you were such good friends and all, they'll miss you too and be glad to hear from you..?

I don't mean to sound mean, but... seriously. If you find someone you really like you shouldn't let them just disappear so easy.

Excellent point, Meralia. I was thinking of saying something like that, but I didn't know how to say it. Well, you said what exactly was on my mind. Good advice!

Wow!!!! I think you've had it worse than any of us. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, and I hope things get better for you soon. Sorry about your father.

Originally Posted by KnowItAllSister

The other night, when I was going through a box of my old stuff, I found a picture of a dear friend of mine. Here's the story between him and I: (Yes, he was 8 when I hung out with him, and I was 14. The only kids in my neighborhood are little kids, so I kinda have no choice in the matter...) He and I were great friends. Then, I went to camp for a week, and when I came back, he became friends with a girl I was no longer able to hang out with (don't ask, it's a messy story! It's just my mom's rules....). The more he and I hung out, the more he wanted to hang out with the other girl. One day, the girl was selling lemonade, and my friend wanted to buy some from her. I said it was okay, as long as we left when we were done. Instead, he just stood there, and helped her clean up. She got her bike, and he got his. They were gonna to ride around, when I suddenly left them. I later went to the basketball court to play, so I could calm my nerves. I found them still hanging out with a bunch of other people, leaving me alone. I burst into tears, sobbing. The boy said, "What's wrong?" I didn't answer, and I started to run home (the basketball court is right across from my house! ^^), and he followed me, asking me the same question. I ignored him, and kept running. I don't remember what I said, but before I opened the door, I shouted something at him. The point is, I found the picture and started crying again. I don't get what happened. He just kinda ended our friendship on the spot, and then we lost contact with each other. I had some other instances where he chose the other girl over me, so I went home. Has this happened to anyone? If so, what happened?

You know, you remind me of myself. I allways putted so much faith and cared so much about my friends just to have it smashed into the floor. Maybe this happened because of the age difference among you two, I don´t know, but what I want to tell is that you still have a long way in front of you and this could happen again. To avoid this choose your friends wisely and it will be ok. I am not telling you this to discourage you or scare you, it´s just the way things work in this world that we live in. I can really relate to what happened to you, and believe me, I understand your pain. You sound like a nice person and I just don´t want you to get hurt again.

I moved about 3-4 years ago and had to walk to and from school. I was new and didn't really have any friends yet, and I met this girl that was walking home down the street right next to mine. I caught up to her and started talking, and we soon became friends. She acted really nice around me and I thought she was a nice person and a good friend. She didn't have any friends really, but I took that to mean she just wasn't popular. People started making fun of me for hanging out with her, but I had been unpopular before, and wasn't about to ditch a friend just cause she wasn't part of the "in"-crowd. Well, I came to discover that when she wasn't around me, she was really mean to people. I started seeing signs of her being mean when I was around sometimes too, although usually not to me. We were friends for a few years, and even though I started feeling uncomfortable with the knowledge that she wasn't as nice as I had thought she was, I continued to be her friend. Well, I invited her to my birthday slumber party, and the next morning while everyone else was asleep she messed up a bunch of my stuff. I had a collection of stickers (many of the packages brand new and unopened birthday presents I had gotten just that week) that she opened up and covered all my stuff with. She even plastered my poster that my friends had made me when I moved in them, ruining the poster and my stickers. We then ceased to be friends. I was kinda sad to lose her as a friend, but what really stunk was the lost opportunity to make all those other friends that made fun of me because I was friends with her.