Has your life changed in...

In any significant way over the almost gone year. Mine has quite a lot. My year starts normally, Winter vacations and all of those good times. Then one of my “friends” decides he wants to have fun with my sister. After beating the guy up a couple of times, I went to some teen “boot camp” kind of thing. I was there for 2 months and got a couple of death threats from some people in there, I think it was all connected with my “friend”, anyways I decided that if it someone was going to kill me that was gonna have to be me, not someone else, I was gonna overdose myself with sleeping pills that I got from a friend. I drank 1 and I kept wondering of what was going to happen. I was really sad and confused at the moment I didn’t know what was really going on, because everything happened so fast. My sister was taken to Mexico to “overcome” her fear and start talking again (she stopped talking for a while after the events with my “friend”. I didn’t really overdose myself that night because I was scared (yeah scared), after a week or so I received a call and it was my sister, she was calling long distance from my grandparent’s house. It was then that I realized that I was afraid of committing suicide, I didn’t know why or what, but I was afraid of something. She only said hi to me and cried and hung up, that was it, I was left hanging. Well after 2 months of my good behavior I was released, my parents told me to go back home but I am not going back there. Over the past 6 months I have been trying to get my life straight, and forgetting what happened, I always get the feeling that my death is right around the corner. When I am walking to school, I get nervous and start imagining things. I am gonna die soon probably, maybe I won’t but o well, I don’t know the future to know what’s gonna happen to me.


For now I am just working and paying a room in my friend’s house, I haven’t talked to my parents nor my sister in 5 months almost 6. I don’t live a happy life nor a sad one, it just does not matter anymore. I guess everyone forgot about me. I already decided to be cremated when I die, I don’t any funeral nor anything expensive.


Anyways....what’s yours?

My life changed 2 years ago when I moved, but even that wasnt a big thing because I just moved to a different location in the same town. The same year my family had gotten a good computer, which introduced me to the online world and foruming, one of my biggest hobbies now, and also the same year I made the transition from from elementary school to middle school, so I had some big changes that year, but they were all for the better.

Thats too bad about what happened to you, but dont commit suicide. BTW if you dont want to answer dont feel like you have to but why did you beat up you friend for being with your sister? Its your sisters choice right? (unless he was forcing her or something) I hope I dont sound like I am against you or something though, I suppose you must have had your reasons. I hope you have better luck in the future.

I'd rather not answer this for FFG, but since I'm not sure if he'll be back anytime soon and so you don't think of him as a jerk, he beat the **** out of him because he abused his sister... man I still remember when all this happened, I remember talking to you on MSN messenger and everything, I wish I would have kept in contact more... From what you took the time to type it seems like your life has been ****ty ever since then, and it's not your fault at all, you really shouldn't try to commit suicide, like I said before, nothing, I mean NOTHING, was your fault. You don't deserve to die, the only person who I still think deserves to die is your dumb-ass friend. Man, if you really are fearing for your life I suggest you contact your family and try to have them help... I'm open for PM's if you want to talk sometime, and I'm pretty sure I still have you on MSN so if you're ever on there send an IM my way...

-Back to topic- This year has been ****ty, not as ****ty as yours, but still, I haven't accomplished anything except being a dumbass and almost failing my Junior year... I could tell you more but for now I think I'm going to go to bed, plus everything else I could say is pointless.

Hasta Luego
-Tu Amigo "L" Chupacabras

By the lords, that sucks, FFG. That really sucks...

Not much has happened really, except I dropped a minor drug habbit in February.

My life?... is in many ways like one of those WB shows... people come and people go; I fall in love and lose it before it can ever begin; I question the boundaries, and sometimes get away with doing so. Sure, I've done some stupid stuff, we all do, but nothing so serious as having sex or doing drugs or drinking or anything down that alley.

As far as the people I've met over the last year... there are several of them. Of course there's everyone on ZU, Mirren, Squall, and everyone else I've met in the forums or who I contact on AIM. But there are also my close friends. At the beginning of the last school year, I was a royal mess; I had hardly any good friends (two friends...TWO!) but that was all about to change. Going against my comfort zones, I decided to actually go to youth group (by myself). This wound up turning into one of the best days of my life. Someone from my school approached me and invited me to sit with her and her friends. These three wound up being my closest (whether or not they've figured it out yet) acquaintences. I would talk to them on the phone, at church, and at school, and about things I never talk to anyone else about. And of course I fell in love with the girl, not knowing that the guy was her boyfriend . But, alas, she was a senior and has gone off to college all the way in Chicago! Ah, life is so cruel...

As far as love had and love lost... well there's of course the girl from church, the only one who I actually 'loved' (the rest are all attractions... ah well). Everyone has that one girl they have known for a long long time that suddenly becomes a love interest on a whim overnight, and I've got mine. She lives right across the street (well, she used to) and I've known her since I first moved here. I haven't really talked to her as much as I'd like, but we have started communicating at school more. I had always thought she was a slut, but I'm starting to rethink that assertion. She really seems sincere. Well, I suppose this is where my life starts turning into a TV show. I learn over the summer that she's taking summer classes in order to graduate at the end of THIS year rather than next. Apparently she has parent problems and loathes her parents (with a passion, I might add). Several TV shows have that girl that the character is in love with who plans on moving away, and the main guy almost always can't stand to see her go, no matter how much he knows he can't change her mind. Alas, I am one of these characters...

Questioning boundaries and stupid stuff... I have discovered, as have many other teenagers... that school is... when it comes down to it... pointless... by the time one gets to high school, he/she usually knows everything he/she will ever need to know to get by or to succeed. High school is basically a rite of passage to college. What a waste of time. Oh well, I love high school. Stupid stuff... I am guilty of getting in fights often with my family, over stuff as stupid as it gets. So stupid that I'm not at liberty to talk about it. I've blabbed too long already...

Srry to hear it, FFG; get that life o' yours turned around, my friend!

Graduated. That's bout it.

Changed... Hm... Gotta say, same old, same old. Only slightly more work to do around the school, essays, presentations, exams. Other than that, nothing has really changed much for me to mention.

Okay, except that lunatic bus driver stomping down on the acceleration pad all the way and going down the mountain in excess speed of 100km/h. And no, I'm not joking about that, it really happened. Or how about the time the bus nearly tipped over to the side when it was overloaded with students? Dang alarm sounded and the driver nearly couldn't make it through the sharp turn. Everyone was screaming so loud....

Sorry to hear what happened to you FFG. I remember you have talked about this before and don't commit suicide. I hope everything get's sorted out for you.
Me? Hmmm, I guess I got changes. Coming back to the US and going to college and working. I have been doing the same thing over and over for 2 years and it's boring for me. I now have difficulties with my family over my major. I am forced to major in Biology to go to Med School. Last month was a disaster for me. I cried everyday over this thing and went to my room to hurt myself. I don't know what I was thinking, but well, I was looking for something... Now I feel a little better, and switched back to Biology. My pointless life has started.
Sorry, I didn't want to say a sad story, but those are the changes for me.

Yes. Since April, I haven't been in school, and won't be again. I work part-time.

Yes, my life has changed quite a bit....

My life has changed in 2 weeks, i was feeling lonely in this world, nothing made me happy, and i tought of ways to commit suicide but then it came my birthday, it was very depressing for me but a friend of my mom gave me a book from Paulo Coehlo, it was very interesting and slowly woke my love for people again, suddenly when i finished it my mom lend me another book, i wont say the title in here, but since i saw that book my life has changed for better, i have seen the mistakes of my past, and learnt that you dont have to worry about the things that happened or the things that will happen, you just have to live in the present, and enjoy every day as if it could be your last, because it could be...

Yeah, FFG, I remember you posting about that and saying you'd end up killing yourself or something. I actually got a little worried. Glad to see you didn't and are back, nice job buddy.

Anyways..over the past year..I was suicidal for a bit and my parents are now making me see a psychologist, tha'ts a good thing, I guess, because now everythings back to where it was before i became suicidal. I never hurt myself, I just thought about it..yeah. o_O

I've had my share of suicidal thoughts, but I'm pretty much over it. Not much has changed for me personally since last winter except this year I actually have two people I can call friend. The things that are changing around me would have to be getting my driveway paved. Now if someone where to ask about a year ago, I would have to say moving into a considerably smaller community and not have to worry about my brother taking up the phoneline. One of the main reasons I happen to be on this site is because I joined after moving.
That's about it.

well i grew 7 inches last year
and I got better clothes...
and overall I became more popular
and I got a skateboard
i went from a computer nerd to part of the in crowd
I got grounded liek hell so i went from being in the in crowd to being in the incrowd at school and a computer nerd at home...
I got nominated for homecoming...

pretty much my social status inverted itself in the last year.

First off, FFG, sorry to hear about everything...

My year? Fairly... rubbish I s'pose. Um....

The year started off with finding out my best friend had been diagnosed with a Brain Tumour, and having not seen him since Dec. 19th the year before, and him being seemingly fine, I was really upset.

Then I moved on to school and GCSE concentrating (while still concentrating on my friend too).

Did a Sponsored Walk with my other mates (and dads too ) in April to raise £1200 for my friend. I know I keep mentioning it, but it is something I am incredibly proud of.

In late June, finished GCSEs, went to a Prom. Went into a semi- catatonic state after realising I had lost a girl, who (at the time), I had a great love for. Couldn't speak or move, or express myself much for almost two days which was really weird and terrifying.

Slipped into depression around August. A lot of stress with "losing" her, GCSE results soon, a few family troubles, struggles with my inner demons and repressed memories. A horrible time when I tried to be happy and smiley but couldn't keep it up. Became suicidal and irritable about myself and others. (For which I can only apologise) Left ZU for a week because of this.

That week, I was sprung a surprise holiday where I was pretty much spoilt more than anything else. I realised there is more to life than dwelling in the past, which lasted for about 2 weeks, when I started to go down again

That was because I got GCSE results on GCSE Results Day, told the girl whom I thought I'd lost and still "loved" me too my true and VERY strong feelings for her. She told me to build a bridge and get over it. Then went off and got cosy with her guy friend (not boyfriend it seemed, but who knows?)

Then I had the same thing I had from before with HER. Lasted much shorter though.

Went back to school. Timetable screw-ups etc, the usual. Became more "patriotic" towards school, started shouting at kids to put out cigarettes, stop swearing, stop bullying, tidied the place up a bit.

Saw HER again, and she didn't hold back this time. I looked at her as if to say, I still like you dee down, but i hate you aswell... Her answer? "Just eff off. I told you to build a bridge, get over it. I hate you. You're an effing fat BarSteward who nobody will ever love, you're an ugly fat attention-seeking blob". I went into sorta here nor there depression.

Got a crush on a girl at school, who now seems to fancy me back, so life is looking up, but it's going down again, I think. I think at some point, A-Level stress, family stress, life stress, repressed memories etc, are going to come back again, I think. But I'm confident in my ability to overcome it. I've overcome worse things. Of course, if me and this girl got together, then I think that would jump-start me over the Moon. But then again, I'm too shy, it could be another heartbreak on the way, who knows? I only know that it could be just 1 thing to push me completely over the edge. Considering my past before 2004. However, 2004 has not been so bad compared to others And I pray for them.

Originally Posted by Jordan L

First off, FFG, sorry to hear about everything...

My year? Fairly... rubbish I s'pose. Um....

The year started off with finding out my best friend had been diagnosed with a Brain Tumour, and having not seen him since Dec. 19th the year before, and him being seemingly fine, I was really upset.

Then I moved on to school and GCSE concentrating (while still concentrating on my friend too).

Did a Sponsored Walk with my other mates (and dads too ) in April to raise £1200 for my friend. I know I keep mentioning it, but it is something I am incredibly proud of.

In late June, finished GCSEs, went to a Prom. Went into a semi- catatonic state after realising I had