(Fa/Rom) The Warmth of Love

I wrote this about 1½ years ago at about 12 years old, the age I got deeply into anime. Since then, it has been collecting dust on my harddrive. Just a cute little short thing between Hiei and Yukina. Thought I'd share it.



These characters are from Yu-Yu Hakusho. I do not own them, just the short fanfiction.


The Warmth of Love

My beloved sister, the one I have longed to protect, have sold my heart to, and promised that I would always watch over. Watch over your sleep, wipe your tears when you are sad, and punish anyone who harms you.

You’ve looked at me so tenderly since the very beginning. I had saved you and you had wondered who I was while I responded in the only way I knew how. How did you feel when I didn’t tell you the truth, when I lied to you? It wasn’t really lying, I’m not a someone, I am a no one. Why haven’t you thought of me the same way I do myself? You have not condemned me at all. In fact, you have protected me when someone has gone against my wishes. Is it because I have saved you? Maybe you care for me…or perhaps…perhaps you love me? That’s not possible…is it?

No, of course not! How could I even think that way? Who would love me…I’m halfway fire, halfway ice. But…so are you…so why am I so bad? How did I end up this way while you became so pure? Out of all these years, you never knew me, but I knew of you. Well, you knew of me, but you’ve never seen me. I’ve seen you. I’ve seen you play with nature’s creations for so long but I never said anything.

You were so young… Your sweet little self running around animals and laughing until you were on the verge of tears of happiness. How can you be so happy? I was never that happy…of course, until that one day you hugged me. You held me so close to your body and decorated my skin with a thousand kisses and sweet touches. Was it you that held me? Did you really take me into your arms and accept me? Why? Why only you?

You were so surprised when I let you kiss me, let you touch me with your gentle hands and sweet lips. You even went as far as to nuzzle my hair. You told me that you liked my dark apparel and dark hair; it made you remember the boy you were born with. How I wonder how you would react if you knew I was that very boy. I will always remember the feeling of your arms around me, embracing me in your loving care. Don’t let go, baby sister, I love you.

Have I learned to have feelings? Have I learned to let it all go around you? Have you really tamed me…was it the trust you put in me? Or…was it the trust I laid in you? Do you know I’m your brother? Do you care? Of course you care. You’ve always cared. Thank you for that. I miss your love so much. Will you let me experience it again? Will you let me hold you this time? I will, gladly. You’re my little sister. I swear I’ll protect you forever. Do you want me to? I doubt you will reject me, and you are the only one who I doubt would. You know why. It’s because how much you mean to me, and how oblivious you are to it. Someone so innocent could never reject me, no matter what I do. I’m proud of you. You’ve shown me what I can be.

You’re so gentle. How close will you let me get to you? May I kiss you? May I enclose you in my arms while you sleep? Will I enter your dreams? If so, will they turn into nightmares? Don’t be afraid, my love, I have no intention to hurt you. In fact, if I ever did, you know what would happen. When I speak of death, you begin to cry. Is it because so many people have died because of you, because they’ve tried to save you? I’m glad I could finally rescue you. Since I was the one to slash your bonds from that amateur, you've gained a trust in me that you could never give to anyone else. I know this because I know how strong our bond is.

I see you enter my room as I suddenly jolt upward to face you. You flash me one of your warmest smiles ever unleashed as I stand up to see our difference in height. You really are my little sister. As you rush over to me, I clasp my arms tightly around you before you can finish running to me. You look…shocked. Why? Are you afraid? Are you happy? Are you experiencing an emotion that I am not familiar with?

I hear you sigh against my chest and snuggle closer to me. I am so glad that you accepted my loving embrace. You move your head to face me eye-to-eye. You have the same blood red eyes that I do. Is that the only symbol of our relation?

My eyes widen as I experience a new feeling: your lips upon mine. My body is full of kisses from you before, but never on the lips…until now. I pull you closer and you end the kiss briefly, blushing and shying away from my eyes. Why are you hiding? Do you know that I enjoyed that? Very much so, actually.

I gently lay my head on your hair, being sure not to put too much weight on you. I can smell the sweet shampoo that you used earlier this morning. So fresh…so pure…so…innocent.

I lead you away from the door and, as I close it, you wonder why. I let go of you and replace my arm around your waist. You notice I am leading you to the bed, and you seem to be afraid, yet, in a way, so much more loving. Of course, I would never do such a thing to my sister. I’m not like that at all.

We both lie on the bed together, surrounded by one another. You cuddle so closely to me, and I return the gesture. Will you let me pull you even closer? May I lay my head on your chest to hear your heart beating so soft?

You could not stand being in such a warm place for too long without dozing off. That’s exactly what you did, baby sister. As you fall asleep in my arms, I look into your face. You’re so beautiful…
Yukina, my little sister, I love you so much. It’s almost time to say goodnight, I believe. I can’t say goodnight anymore without you here beside me. I love you!

You were twelve when you wrote this? Oh, heck...

I have absolutely no idea what this was based on, but I'd say you did very well with it. You definitely managed to convey a lot of emotion in that piece. Is there any chance that you'll write more? I don't mind if it's new, a continuation, whatever - if you were this good at twelve, I really want to know what you can do now.

Just one problem. Having to read that much text, in that colour, on this background, was hell. I know you like that colour, but...*shrugs helplessly*

So...is anything more forthcoming?

I'm sorry. I still use the old forum skin. Many people have told me to change it.

Tell you what. For this fanfiction thread, I will change my font color to be readable on both forum skins.

Yes, there is more, but I'm afraid you won't like the length. On my other story, I only have one chapter done, and it is about 12000 words in that chapter.

This was based on the fact that I was a huge fan of Hiei and his protectiveness of his little sister, Yukina. It sounds like a relationship thing, but I was just trying to show how much affection I think they'd give each other when no one is around to watch and spoil Hiei's reputation.

And thank you for your comments.

Wow. That was really well-written. You were twelve when you wrote it? Geeze, that's a lot better then what I could write when I was twelve (probably is better than what I can write now). I have no idea what Yu-Yu Hakusho is either, but I didn't really need to know that to understand what you were trying to get across in your story.

Thanks for changing the font colour. This one is much more readable.

Originally Posted by Alonely

This was based on the fact that I was a huge fan of Hiei and his protectiveness of his little sister, Yukina. It sounds like a relationship thing, but I was just trying to show how much affection I think they'd give each other when no one is around to watch and spoil Hiei's reputation.

Believe it or not, that's the kind of impression that I got from you piece there. Goes to show that you're pretty good at getting across what you want.

Oh, and the 12,000-word chapter isn't a problem - I want to see it anyway. If you don't want to post that much at once, try breaking it up a bit (ie, post it in chunks). Besides, having official "chapters" is over-rated, IMO.

I'm looking forward to whatever you decide to post, Alonely.

wow thats good especially scince you were 12 you are pretty good