**walks in to thread under a huge leaf, looking left then right**
I suppose I can no longer hide and curl up into a ball what with
Ahluk posting what he did. He probably doesn;t realise how much what he'd written had affected me.
Because.
For one, I didn;t think anyone but
Buu (all the loves for Elin) had written about me. And I had been pacing back and forth and wrestling with all the wibbly feels that I had for Buu for writing what she did, and had no iDEA how to express how much her words had touched me.
And then I read
Liah's post, which I hadn't known
existed; until Ahluk reminded me of when I quoted everyone before. So I decided to go back over all the posts post by post to check and see just in case I had missed anything; and now feel like a right rude tit *smiles shakily and attempts to hide*
No WAIT.
No hiding.
Okay, first of all I guess I owe it to people to explain (briefly) why I had been avoiding this thread, and
ZU for a while.
ZU used to mean a hUGE part of my world. A main undetachable aspect of ME. I got so attached to it and its people; and when I faced my own personal problems, I chose to go away and deal with them myself, I couldn't do it another way. When I returned, several times, I found that
ZU had moved on a lot. Those who remembered me were no longer the majority and whenevr I posted, felt so out of place and could find no place where to fit. I wished to just be a normal member.
I didn't want to be revered on one hand, and extra-shunned by those who don't know me for having this "undeserved" attention from some of the big oldie names on the other hand *laughs* and I felt that clearly from some.
I still read everything. I still cared about everyone, but did it from afar. Partly because of what I'd mentioned above, partly because of fear, and partly because .. I'd almost .. forGOTTEn how to speak. How to socialise so easily like I used to. Which made me feel very insecure.
BUT, all that aside (OH GOD airing of unclean laundry xD I might edit this bit (above) out after a wee bit)
I now see and have read the posts, and feel it would be highly unfair and disrespectful if I continue to hide and act like I don't know this Anime_Queen person. The LEAST that can be done is to acknowledge, and return the respect and love to those whom have given it so generously.. and I can never underplay how MUCH every word meant.
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Originally Posted by Buu ANIME_QUEEN / ASIA / ALL YOUR OTHER NAMES
I don't even know what to write about this woman.
Our first interaction was like this: Asia: Aawww, you are bigeyed and fluffy like a cherub should be ^ ___ ^ Buu: Waah, that is really nice :'> .. wait isn't a cherub a fat angel what the what what
Then I think she dropped me a VM. I would check but she is all sneaky forever now.
Our very long VMs made her feel so familiar. So they evolved into PMs where I told her all sorts of things. Which evolved into other sneaky ways of communication as well. SINCE SHE IS ALL SNEAKY FOREVER.
.. And somehow we just got very close?
I can't hide anything from this superwoman and it's frankly quite embarrassing.
I don't even know what happened. We sent a few messages and suddenly she reads me like a mofo book. Asia: Hello Buu. <3 Buu: Hello! ♥ Asia: Why are you sad? Buu: Sad? Oh, no. Lolol, I'm not sad. I'm just on my period. Asia: Mhm. Unless you've been on your period for the last 3 months, you are lying. Buu: Asia: Spill it. :> Buu: :'D
SHE WATCHES LIKE A GODDAMN HAWK and constantly tells me all sorts of things about me that I thought was hidden or even things I haven't yet realized.
All in all, I have tons of love, trust and admiration for this towelwoman and I am totally and utterly determined to meet her one day so she can pinch my cheeks and noogie me.
THUGS 4 LYFE |
Obviously it had to be Buu
*laughs*
I wasn't in a good place or time when you wrote that, Elinface, and it meant the world to me. It meant so much
Yes, I DO watch you like a hawk **laughs** because you are simply .. astounding. Of a character, a person, a soul.
I recently told you about how I was unable to reply. I had already felt a rush of big-sisterly emotions and love towards you, and without being invited slowly, a huge WAVE of "MUST LOOK AFTER AND PROTECT EVEN IF FROM AFAR! o__o!" had hit me.
To be honest, I saw myself in you a wee bit when I used to be really active. And I feared for you; the overwhelming fact of EVERYONE wishing to speak with you at the same time and getting offended if you are not able to reply quickly; or perhaps not even aLLOWing you to have off days, or angry ones or just general "don't. feel. like. talking" ones. In exactly the same way I feel so for Liah.
You are so full of life, your emotions are always on a high setting whatever mood you are in *smiles* you laugh hard, you cry hard, you are upset hard. You're so HONEST. And if you don't feel like being honest you withdraw. You are so wonderfully GENUine. You're incredibly smart, intelligent and gifted in many ways. And I wish I had a percentage of your strength and courage at times.
And I guess you make many *pAle* next to you. Haha, to be honest, I fear speaking with you sometimes, and I find myself at a loss at what to say or hOW to say. Because I can;t hOPe to match your high tier of being for now. Perhaps later when I'm more oiled at speaking with people again (it's like I'm still constantly tripping at the moment and forgetting but I'll get there!).
I can write a thesis about you, my lady, but I don't wish for people to start HATING when I've posted now because it'll be a million lifetimes long *laughs*
So I'll just finish up by saying: for some reason I don;t kNOW. I feel a connection to you, love you as a sis to love and protect, and you have my undying loyalty. Make of that what you will <3
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Originally Posted by AzraelBlack Asia is like that.
She said hi once and 4 pm's later my attitude was ASIA I TRUST YOU WITH MY LIFE
She's an incredible human being. |
**smiles then laughs and wibbles**
By that point, we still hadn't really sPOken spoken. But I couldn;t help myself quite a few times from just .. signing on JUST to send you a pm to exclaim as to something you'd said that I admired. The strange thing is .. you're the only person I have found myself doing that with *laughs* And I swear to you I just couldn't help it.
It would have been easy for me, or anyone, especially if it was first impressions in real life, to write you off as that unfairly good looking, suave, conceited, vain up-his-arse hipster but, that would have been one of my biggest regrets if so.
By rights, you should have one of the biggest egos around, and oftentimes, your social position and vocation (heartthrob/rockstar) should have inflated your head so much that you would have been floating, hot-air-balloon-style halfway across the ocean by now.
Yet you're nOT that. You're the OPPOsite, and I find that simply amazing and cannot but pay you my respect in FULL, dammit. Can;t bite back a single penny of respect. Heck, with taxes on that besides **smiles**
Your morals, values, steadfastness, humbleness, kindness, accomodating even the most annoying and irritating of people. You give them time - OFFER them time, help and attention. You OPENly take criticism and are oKAY with hearing an opposing point of view in resPECT.
Your generous giving sOUl. There are ways I know, by now, how to tell and guage the giving-ness of someone. And yes, I stalk you sometimes (I stalk all those I admire) and it's beautiful to behold. Always.
You are a stunning person, inside and out; and I tip my proverbial hat to you in respect, brotherhood and admiration.
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Originally Posted by Luka I read this and
this is honestly an excellent example. She's a wonderful person and does indeed watch like a goddamn hawk!
I had met her back when I was a young newbie and was trying to get to know ZU and its community, and she must have given me the warmest welcome I had ever received. Every now and then I've had the wonderful pleasure of being able to chat with her, and every time, regardless of how long our conversations would last, they'd end up being quite wonderful. :>
Whilst I can't say I know her the best, what I do know is that she is indeed an incredible human being, and one who I love, appreciate (especially appreciate!) AND OTHER NICE THINGS a great deal, to say the least. I wish her the bestest best luck with everything!
...damn, now I want to make another post like this. :<
also jaffa cakes are good |
Thank you very much, o sweet sweet Luka :<
Haha, I know it made you bristle in indignation upon my calling you wee self back then "so. incredibly. CUTE!" *laughs* but you were and are.
Than you very much for your sweet words, for your pure heart towards me, for never showing anger nor resentment and for always ALWAYs, making it a WONDErful experience when we DO catch up, even when it is a year or more since the last time we did.
Often I am stunned at how young you are, because you carry yourself with an air of dignity and maturity far beyond your years. I feel for you, worry for you, and wish you the happiness and FREEDOM to be yourself truly, very soon inshallah.
I thank you for letting me into your world, for trusting me, for tREATing me like the big sis I feel I am to you. I care for you, and even though I disappear off the radar at times, always, when I return, you're one of those I NEVER feel awkward or different around. Thank you for believing in me and making me feel special to you, all these years. You are, without doubt, special to me.
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Originally Posted by Daenerys Targaryen I'm gonna write for one of my longest and closest friends not just on ZU, but my entire life: Asia Alfasi/Anime_Queen 
^^lol that is Asia on invisibility mode on ZU
There's an important reason I'm doing this because, truth be told, I wasn't going to. But with you making your return with sketches, history has proven that your undying popularity is gonna spike again and... I guess I worry that people will place you on a pedestal that'll draw a tonne of attention, and then people start becoming expectant and feel entitled to your time, your kindness, your talents. It's happened before and it is one of the few things on ZU that honestly gets me angry when I see it happen to you. So I am writing this post not so much of a praise-you-oh-my-god! but so people can see and are reminded that you are human in your feelings and time and interaction, and why that is precious.
Asia... famous across ZU for her kindness, wisdom and artistic talents, and with good reason; she's got a ♥♥♥♥tonne of it. One of the most important things about this lady, in my eyes, is her capacity to love. There isn't a "internet personality" here for her; we're all people of worth and deserve respect, just as she'd treat anyone IRL. It's one of the reasons that so many people flock to her because she makes you feel so loved.
But through all that, what I want to emphasise here is that she has her own problems, RL things that she has to carry, like any of us, and she has her days where she can feel down or ready to backhand a ♥♥♥♥♥, but almost always she'll put others first, give up time and energy and dish out wisdom, advice and care regardless of whatever she is going through at the mo'. It can be an extremely heavy role, being almost god-tier lol with popularity in a community, but holy hell she holds it well. It honestly makes me proud when I see her guide others with as much love and strength as she shows, all the while carrying her own shiz too.
Around her, I can be just... me. Man, I know that sounds kinda dumb lol, but there are very few people that I let my guard down around completely, and I do her. When we talk, even after months of no contact, we can get together, relax, tell each other about our bad times, our major ♥♥♥♥ ups, have the other person go "THAT'S SO STUPID WHY DID YOU DO THAT" and neither of us get defensive.
I can speak freely about things I've hidden or am ashamed of, and she never judges me. Well. She'll call me out if I do something dumb haha, as I would her, but that doesn't mean our sisterly love for each other lessens any. At all. I can be loud and funny and forward, but I can also be quiet and unfunny and stupid, and in front of her, it's all taken in with open arms. She doesn't expect anything of me, and I, her, so just being -US- when we're together is the most wonderful experience.
Often she'll say ♥♥♥♥ I don't want to hear, and I'll do the same for her. It's usually stuff we ALREADY KNOW but conveniently tuck away so it doesn't bother us. Nope. She doesn't let me keep that ♥♥♥♥ in the dark, nor do I, her.
While, yes, she IS kind and gentle, in my eyes she's actually very hot-tempered, stubbourn and extremely fierce xDD. I'm not even kidding. And I LOVE that about her. I find her to be an incredibly strong spirit that I admire muchly.
Oh yeah, and she's one of the stealthiest trolls on ZU lol.
YEAH I SAID IT HAHA.
Overall, Asia is... an incredible person, absolutely incredible. She's inspiring and hard-headed haha and gentle and strong all at the same time, and I think she's perfect, though when I say perfect I don't mean she's without flaws, not at all. I mean she's perfect for me as a sister and best friend, and I love her more than I could ever possibly say. |
My dearest sister and friend, Lilo
First of all, I apologise for not even realising this existed.
I am at a loss as to hOW to respond in a fitting manner, without coming up short - as I'm almost bound to do in comparison to what you'd written *smiles*
I thank you, I thank you, I tHANK you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Even though, perhaps, the only person here who knows the exTENT of my flaws, weaknesses and failures. You also, as the beautiful empathising and caring soul you are, realise, pick up on and gently address my fears in a way that somehow dOESN't make it seem like I'm a sissy coward *laughs*
I don't know whether the reason for our erratic and powerful emotions, feelings and reactions towards each other is borne of the fact that we KNOW we can't act around each other. It just can't and WON;t be done *laughs*. So, if I have stuff I don;t wish to talk about, I'll just AVOID you because I kNOW that if we were to speak, I won't be able to get away with the surface and avoidy talk I can pull off with everyone else; and I know you do the same *smiles*. You WILL make me talk. And I seldom really "talk". You are one of those rare people to whom I do. And that is testament to the trust, faith and love that I place in you.
Its nigh on impossible for me to pinpoint precisely wHAT it is about you. That sets you apart, to me, from everyone else. Your stRENGth of character, your humour (matched by NOne)(Ok, maybe Theresa xDD ), your hONEsty, your GENuine character. If you're angry, you'll bloody well show it; and if you're touched or feel wibbly, you will damn wELL cry; you are you. Thoroughly. And you're the only person on
ZU whom I've connected with strongly even on a fAITh basis. In a time and place where it seems to be very uncool to even MENtion faith without sOME kind of chance of dismissal or even ridicule, it's difficult to find a person who not only respects, yet compLETELy understand and SHARE on that.
You have helped me grow as a person in more ways than I can mention in one book let alone a post. You had accepted me for who I am, trusted me, and trusted me even to SHOW anger with me when I deserved it. You know, I've come to realise that only those who tRULY care for you, TELL you when they're angry or upset at you, beCAUSe they care. And I feel humbled anytime you DO show me that. Even if I'll be scared and sissy to hear it, I truly and genuinely appreciate it every time. Because after every time I feel like my bond with you is stronger. If it ever seems to have waned or weakened or doubt cast upon it, that is only because we are only dancing around one another and not being all OK, LET'S AIR IT OUT IN THE RING! NO HOLDS BARRED STYLE! **laughs**
You are a truly radiant radiant soul. Haha, it's funny, because I feel towards Buu exactly how I felt towards you at the beginning. A bit scared to speak to you but watching you from afar because you were just too damn cool. Again, I still feel very rusty on the whole socialising and speaking front since I haven;t really done it in a long time, but I'm DAMN proud to see you shine like the beacon I always saw you as.
I love you, sincerely, with all my still-awkward heart.
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Originally Posted by !? Anime_Queen (Asia)
You're a dear sister to me, and I am grateful for having our discussions in PMs, because a lot of matters are too personal for other people to snoop on |
?! - You humbled me by opening up to me and speaking with me the way you did since I first began showing up on
ZU again. Thank you for that, and I hope you'll feel able to respond again so we can tackle everything, bit by bit inshallah; to solve everything that is bothering you. I wish you well, I wish you happiness and peace of mind; and if one has those things, then they have encompassed the world.
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Originally Posted by Ahluk ANIME_QUEEN
I know she has been done many times already (sorry if that sounds extremely dirty, I just woke up, DO NOT THINK LIKE THAT AHLUK) but she deserves many more.
I remember being a newbie, coming back to ZU, not knowing many of you guys. As I came back, I remember everyone talking about this one member, known as Anime_Queen. I thought to myself she must be a big deal
sounds dickish, I'm not trying to sound like that. She was very well known, but I had no idea who she was. Then there was a thread about her..... A THREAD ABOUT HER!! I read all these amazing things about her, it seemed the entire community loved her, yet I did not know anything about her.
So I went to her page, and read a few of her posts. She seems nice I thought, but now she seems inactive, oh well.
I can't even remember what I wrote in her thread, something like, her being nice or something.
Then she posted. I don't mean, a regular short Ahluk style post, I mean, she QUOTED everybody, from what I saw, in her thread. EVERYONE. She replied to everyone, EVEN ME, SOMEONE SHE DID NOT KNOW. I started to like her more, her random posts in the GCC thread, and a few in the scrapbook thread. Man, I had no idea how wonderful she was!
She didn't stay for very long, and her time here seemed rare.
Soon after, I received a VM from her, I can tell you guys, I was nervous. I didn't know what to say, the way she writes, what she says, EVERYTHING was so.. amazing to me.
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And now, here I am, APPRECIATING THE HELL OUT OF HER. I added her on Skype not too long ago, and just like with everyone else I add on Skype, I did not talk to her. Once. For a while.
SHE DREW ME GUYS. DREW ME!!!!
Her Draw A ZUer thread in the art section ALWAYS MAKES ME HAPPY.
FJDIOERJEFDOFF EVERYONE'S DRAWINGS ARE FANTASTIC.
Just thought I'd put that in there somewhere.
Then it happened. She wrote something to me on Skype.
I didn't know what to do, or say.
I just wrote what was on my mind. And surprisingly, she responded back. We don't talk much to each other, but talking to her now, feels natural.
I FEEL LIKE I CAN TELL HER EVERYTHING. She has this, way of letting me tell her my feelings, hell, personal feelings, and it feels right.
She knows exactly what to say, all the time, that's the kind of person she is.
IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT HER THOUGH, she has asked many questions about me, A LOT. I think I've told her many things about my village, whaling, hunting, WHO I LIKE, all that.
I.. don't know what else to say, just, I am happy to know Asia. It's as simple as that.
EDIT: Also, just to brag, SHE CALLED ME ON SKYPE
there, that's all, I think |
Last but not Least,
I have fINALly come to
Ahluk, Kenface, Ahlukface, Kendude, Kenbro, Eskiken, and Ah! Look!
**smiles then laughs**
You are one of those people who is compLETEly and UTTERly oblivious to your value and worth. (USeless xDD!!! **laughs** )
Of course, first noticed because of your
zu-famous scrapbook photos, though then I started to rEALLY worry for you *laughs* because I was aware you might be feeling SO much pressure to keep on taking aMAZing photos otherwise you really have no worth on
ZU.
Well let me tell you, that is not true. *smiles*
There is SO much more to you.
You're currently one of the most community driven people here, you CARE about people's posts. So many posts nowadays are people just .. repLYINg to the first post question and leaving it at that. You're one of those who addresses others, asks about them, CAres and shows interest. You are funny, upbeat, can be silly, can be mature, can be a wee bit pervy **laughs** but always in a very very endearing manner. Never too brash or overbearing.
I tried to speak with you a wee bit through VMs a few months ago, but you were too much in "awe mode" to just be .. Ahluk with me. I decided to try and interact with you indirectly for a while, perhaps address some of your posts, scrapbook, community thread and otherwise, to make you feel a wee bit more comfortable. I wanted to see yOU. The you I see on the forums
And when, this past week I finally spoke with you on skype, it was jUST that. It was so NATURAL. I felt absolutely NO pressure to live up to some high-pedestal image (I will ALWAYS clam up and be all closed seashell if someone is looking at me like that - or if *I* am looking at tHEM like that *coughBuucough* *laughs*
So it was SUCH a breath of fresh air! You are SO fun, a sPARKling soul. You have EVERything going for you, and you are now oFFICIALLy my BRO! :>! I shall push and bully you to get over some of those silly wee stoppers and borders you've put around yourself. You should and have every right to BE more confident and believe in yourself. And if it needs me to pick on you till you do, so be it **laughs**
When it came to drawing ZUers, I did not go for "MY BEST FRANDZ"; but rather, the people I see on
ZU whom I had missed out on during my period of inactivity; whose personalities have injected a LOT into the current
ZU atmosphere. And you are DEFINItely one of those cornerstones, and so you were the first I drew :> (You look cool, bro!)(And Dat Hair!)( <3!)
If any of you are still reading ... thank you ^_^
*curtsies and hurries out**