It seems self-evident that you never really wanted him to die, you simply thought you did. It's just another life lesson.

And DarkKnite, I'd be hard-pressed to find anyone with more than a knowledge of Psychology 101 who would agree with you. Save those who have serious and incurable mental illnesses, nobody is brought to such a state simply by being mean, unlikable, and friendless. If he did kill himself, the real question is what made him so mean, unlikable, and friendless, anyway.

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