Yeah i kinda felt that way. Sorry about all of my grammer problems. I tryed calling her back about 2 minutes after i said all that stuff, and she had her phone off. i wanted to call and apologize but i cant ever get a hold of her... am i being selfish again? well iono but thank all of you for what you have said. it really helps me sort of see myself on the outside... makes no sence but yeah, so thank you again.