My grandfather was the first relative who died for me as well (except for my other grandfather, who died when I was 1... so doesn't count). I cried so much...
As to what I think of death... I fear death. A
lot. There's nothing I'm more afraid of than dying, actually. And it sucks, because I can't possibly escape it. I feel extremely bad when I think of it, I even get short panic attacks sometimes, so I try not to think of it.
Do I believe in an afterlife? I don't know. I have a hard time believing in things. I'd like to believe so, but I'm not one of those guys you can convince by reading from the bible. I said so in another thread, but I would really like to have a near death experience. Maybe that could shed some light upon it all. Maybe. I won't try killing myelf in order to get one though, that would just be plain moronic
